My first office check in

Well the day has finally arrived, my first office check in. I have been a nervous wreck all day! I weighed myself this morning to get myself prepared, and according to my scale I have lost 3 pounds so far. And I really encouraged myself this time that I need to be proud of that! 3 less pounds I have to haul around, right? Well I went in and waited awhile, I had my oldest son Michael with me which was a great distraction from the anticipation. They finally called me back and had me step on the scale, I honestly thought twice about taking my flip flops off lol it all counts right?! Well I feel silly and left them on...this time LOL And I look down and I'll be damned if their scale shows I have actually lost a total of........10 pounds!!!! AAAGGGHHHH I am so excited! I was so happy I was talking over my nutritionist (I know I need to work on that, I'm trying!) so excited to report back all of the changes I have made, I have been logging in everyday since our last visit. And he gets down to business he logged in there with my name and password and looked at everything and was so impressed I was logging everything, even the garlic and onions I add to dishes. He even asked me to please share my workout videos with our private facebook group so they might help others! I am beyond thrilled, and I am actually looking forward to my first support group meeting tonight! Thanks Mom for coming with! <3
I just wish Michael hadn't said can we go to McDonald's now mom LOL I felt like he had just said a curse word saying McDonald's in the weight loss office!! HAHA He just wants the toy they have but still. I took him of course since he was so good, and I was so happy to order my salad, no extra dressing and an unsweet tea! Tasted like success HAHA I committed to my workouts 5 days a week now with the physician too, so I am going to really hold myself to that! And then hopefully soon I can have the strength and stamina to finally join a gym again, and workout with my friends :) That is my goal right now that would make me so happy to do that. Well I guess that's it for me today, if I hear anything worth sharing at my meeting tonight I will be sure to make a post. Thanks for reading!

xoxo Emily

My current core workout

My current cardio workout

So confused...

Well I have been on my journey for 20 days and I wish I could write and say that I've lost this impressive amount of weight, but I haven't. :( I just don't get it, I am doing what my nutritionist said, I cut my caloric daily intake by nearly half, I have started doing some cardio why am I not losing any weight?? I mean this isn't going to deter me or anything but it sure is depressing. I mean logically in my mind it made sense cut down your calories, watch you sugars I am following on myfitnesspal and using their guidelines to be sure I am eating right. I have even given up soda and any alcohol, which I thought would really boost my results. So I am just at a point where I know I am going to continue and I will get there, but it would be nice to have that encouragement of a little weight loss to make me proud that I am doing this. I have an appointment with my nutritionist next week, I guess my greatest fear is that he will think I am being dishonest about my efforts, or that there is a medical reason I am not losing weight. Which terrifies me to add another hurdle to this journey, but I am going to hope for the best and pray that its just that my scale is broken! LOL Planning another grocery trip this week and again very excited to try some more new recipes. Me and my kids are enjoying this process together, but I keep reminding myself to tell them they are not on a diet they are just being encouraged to make healthier choices. They are starting a new school next year, and they have an emphases on health and nutrition so I am so excited to have that in our lives. Feels like everything happens for a reason and this school is just another part of this journey. I will be sure to write a post once I have seen my nutritionist next week, I also have an appointment at their Tempe office to have an ultrasound done, and my psych eval, boy does that sound fun :P

Xoxo,
Emily

New beginnings...well kinda

Well I have officially been on this new journey for 10 days. Seems like longer but anyways. I wanted to write about my first official all healthy grocery trip. Now I honestly hate grocery shopping, so the fact that I was actually excited to go this time just was well...weird. But good weird. I made my list of all the ideas for meals and snacks and it just felt like the official beginning to the new me. I felt good in knowing if I read the nutrition facts I actually knew what I was looking for and not just guessing, haha. I was able to look at things and know I could swap for a healthier option. This was the first time I didn't begrudgingly pick up a healthier option and think well this is going to taste like crap. No, I was excited to make the right choices and know that then they will benefit my kids as well as me. I even bought whole wheat flour, I honestly would have never even known that existed! It feels so weird to think knowing that only a couple weeks ago I just didn't care. Well I did, but I was never honest with myself about putting in the effort I was capable of. I never really wanted to change I guess, I love food. I have loved food my entire life, I cannot remember a single time in my life that I was not overweight. And I know these habits started when I was young because I can remember being told no you don't need another serving, you've had enough, which I had, but I persisted I was still hungry anyways because I liked to eat. Which neither of my parents ate like that, so I guess it was just something in me I cannot understand. But recently I have looked at my youngest son and seen his eating habits and they are just like me. I felt horrible once I really opened my eyes, he is mimicking me and my awful relationship with food. So I want to be the role model he deserves not just the manners and things I teach but how to take care of your body and really love yourself. Having children really makes you look at yourself in a way you never did before, before kids what I did only affected me, now everything I do affects them so I need to do my best to set a good example.

Meals for this week:
turkey burgers
whole wheat pizza night
turkey meatloaf
chicken and veggies
eggplant parm
salmon and aspargus foil packets

Breakfasts:
Yogurt
fruit
protein shakes (mostly rockin refuel by shamrock farms I love this stuff!)
eggs

Lunches:
tuna
whole wheat muffin caprese
left over dinner

Snacks:
cheesestick
fruit
protein bar
veggies
found a greek yogurt veggie dip that I love too!

And the only sweets we have been eating are sugar free jello or pudding, and fruit.

Still maintaining my 2lb loss so we will see in a week if there are any changes. I plan to start some YouTube video workouts this week, so I am hoping that will work out because adding exercise has been so hard for me due to my physical limitations. But not for long!

xoxo
Emily

 

Well here it begins...

First let me say I am starting this blog mostly for me, I want somewhere to be able to document this journey to a new healthier me! I want to be able to talk about all the things going on with me good and bad, just a place to share my thoughts and emotions. And hopefully someday have this to look back on and appreciate the struggle and the steps it took to get where I someday hope to be. I am not a professional writer so if you follow along, please bear that in mind. I am not sure that I will ever share this with more than my family and friends, Hi Christina and Mom :), but maybe someday there will be someone in the exact same place as me today and that I can say if I can do it so can you! So far in this journey I have gone to see the professionals at the Weight Loss Institute of AZ or WLIAZ as you may have seen them before. I went in there just with a hope and a prayer that a lap band procedure may be in my future. And I can say this is going to happen! I was a little taken aback by hearing that in order for me to receive surgery I need to lose 80 pounds! I was shocked! But after the surgeon explaining to me why I completely understand, heartbroken but understand. My first thought was if I could lose 80 pounds on my own I would have done it by now! But this truly in my heart feels different, I have never had a team of nutritionists, and physicians on my side like this before. And I know if I give it my all I can and will do this. So far I am using the MyFitnessPal app to track my progress, so far so good really. I love that I have to enter in everything I am eating and if I am embarrassed to enter it then I shouldn't be eating it!! Well this is my intro, I will write whenever I feel the need and I hope you follow along on this journey to the New Healthier Me! :)