Today is the day!!

Just wanted to get to document my feelings before surgery. Today is the big day, I slept surprisingly well but did wake up at 4am and wasn't able to go back to sleep. The boys were dropped off to my mom last night, and my hubby is on his way home so I was home alone last night. I was so nervous last night, but this morning the nervousness is starting to wear off and just excitement and the feeling of "lets do this" is kicking in haha :) Took off all my jewelry which feels so weird so naked without my wedding ring and earrings lol I have to be sure not to eat or drink anything but I have to be at the hospital at 7am so shouldn't be too bad. I took the rest of the week off of work, I have my bed set up downstairs for when I come home, don't think I will know what to do with a week off. I am hoping for an easy recovery just lots of rest, luckily I have such an awesome family the boys are set for rides to and from school, they even start their fall break this week so they are off Thursday and Friday, so if everything happens for a reason and this being pushed back, having them off those 2 days really makes a big difference. I am so curious what I will weigh today! My scale has been broken since I started my preop diet, I am so nervous that I have lost enough weight that my surgeon will be happy. But I have been so strict this past 2 weeks I have not eaten a single bite of anything I am not supposed to so I have to have lost right? Got all my meds filled took 3 doses of 2 different antibiotics yesterday, I have my anti nausea patches, liquid pain killer, and my lovely blood thinner injections. Yep injections not super excited about that lol 14 days of it too! Hoping that goes smoothly I am terrified to do it. Well not much else to say but I wanted this to look back on to remember this feeling hours before being banded and being in the next phase of this weightloss journey. As always thanks for reading!

Xoxo,
Emily

Scratch that, let's make it September 30th

Yep that's right they changed the date on me :( Boo!! I guess the normal scheduler was off on the day of my appointment so they booked me a day my surgeon was open but not the operating room, yeah bummer. So its pushed back a full 2 weeks. Now I am going to be completely honest to keep myself accountable, I fully had a pity party Emily weekend lol Now they had told me because I have so much weight to lose that it would be a good idea to start that preop diet now so that would mean a whole month instead of 2 weeks! Yeah I cried for at least 20 minutes, I was heart broken. It was like the amount of self pep talking I had done and was on day 3 of the preop diet, just like shook my whole world. Sounds silly writing about it now but its how I felt in the moment. So I let myself enjoy a few treats this weekend savoring that it may be the last time I eat certain foods, still kind of surreal to be completely honest. But I am back on it today I am convinced I am singly handedly supporting shamrock farms with the amount of rocking refuels I have been drinking lol I did get the go ahead from my nutritionist that I can have mustard so I have been doing a lot of turkey lunchmeat and mustard. Breakfast if I have time has been scrambled egg whites with turkey lunchmeat salt and pepper. Chicken breast, chicken breast, and more chicken brest for dinners lol I plan on meal prepping tonight and doing different seasonings for chicken so I can grab a bag heat it up and not have to fuss. So just an update surgery is Sept 30th 8am check in at 6. Still a Tuesday so my hubby will be with me and I only had to take 4 days off work. I did put on a few pounds from this weekends pity party theme but I am back at it full force today going to stick to the diet and hit the gym, will be excited to see what I can accomplish! Thanks for reading all!
xoxo
Emily